Other World

I have had aspirations to actually write more on this blog. I have a few lines of what was supposed to be a post on my trip to Hawaii, and I had planned on a nice, long stint about the Provo Freedom festival. But I have aspirations to do a lot of things that never seem to get done. I have a partialy built table-top aeroponics unit out in a lego bucket in the living room; my scorpions finally have proper dirt, but are still awaiting cool plants, etc. But this blogging thing, I’m not quite sure what to do about it. My orginal plan was to make it one part journal and one part rough-draft documentation for the many projects I aspire to complete.

The problem with using it as a journal is that I’m a very private person and there are things I don’t want the whole world to see. Really, there are things I just don’t want certain people to see. But keeping a journal is important to me. Last year President Eyring gave a talk on keeping a journal. Whenever prophets and general authorities give talks in conference I do try to apply what they are saying to my life, no matter what, but Elder Eyring’s talk was one of those that hits you in the heart and gives you that extra twinge of guilt/resolve. Guilt that you haven’t been doing whatever they are talking about, and resolve to do better. This is especially notable because it hit me at a point in conference when my attention span was waning a bit. As I said, this was last year, and a few entries in a blog that has not been properly backed up does not a journal make. Especially since I’m not even blogging about things that I don’t mind everyone seeing.

As for the projects, as usual, I’m just a slacker. I’m not sure how other people do it. It seems like my friends and co-workers have seen all the latest movies, faithfully watch more TV shows than I new existed, keep up with facebook and online gaming (they also know more games than I ever knew existed), run families, read books, and still manage to keep learning about all the complexities of the computer world. How are you doing that?! Me, I have trouble convincing my body not to sleep ten hours a day, eating regularly, keeping my room in the clean-if-cluttered category, watering my plants and feeding my critters. I usually get to work no more than five minutes late and barely manage to make my quotas. That’s about what it comes down to right now for me. I want to do so much more but I’m struggling with just the basics. Reading is just about gone right now in my life, except for the reading I do to prepare for my sunday lessons; I watch too much TV but it from the conversations around me, it at least seems like I watch almost nothing compared to some; I gave up most computer games years ago; I don’t think I facebook very much (feed the virtual dog, send plants, play a few brain games) and I don’t have nearly enough time for the people in my life or the projects I want to be doing.

I’m almost out of the blogging time I’ve alotted myself tonight, so in my next post I hope to list some of the things I am working on, and maybe set some reasonable timelines for working on them. Maybe, just maybe, I can start managing my aspirations so that I can complete a few.